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talya_'s review against another edition
1.0
I wish she would have actually went through with it. Is that a horrible thing to say? Maybe but I just don't like how the book played out. For one, I never actually got the feeling that Ellery hated herself and was suicidal. She's always stating how unhappy and depressed she is, but it's all telling instead of showing. I never felt like her emotions were genuine or sincere. And then we have the boring ass love interest. The romance in this book basically teaches that a guy will solve your problems. A guy will make you love yourself, a guy will give you the will to live, a guy will make you happy when nothing else can, a guy is the best thing that could ever happen to someone.
Bitch please.
Bitch please.
pantsreads's review against another edition
3.0
This book is filled with HEAVY topics, but it's also hopeful.
Check out my full review at Forever Young Adult.
Check out my full review at Forever Young Adult.
casg_3's review against another edition
5.0
OH MY!!! That was.... intense. I cried throughout the whole book! It was just so freaking sad!!! But I loved it! It gives a wonderful lesson too. Iy just makes me think that my best friend could be thinking of doing this and I wouldn't know!!! I just hate that people go through this and sometimes alone!! The can at some times be predictable yet at others you didn't expect it at all. This makes you think about her sisters death throughout the entire book! And it irritates you because you want to know what made her like this. And you can't possibly think you know what she is feeling unless you've been through it (I hope you haven't). I loved it! Give it a try!
absynthetix's review against another edition
4.0
Like a better written, more socially conscious Thirteen Reasons Why. Actually shows what to do for teenagers in that position at the end.
shemyshines98's review against another edition
5.0
I truly love this book, it's a bit funny and just so real.Ellery blames herself for her little sister's death Tate. Ellery and her dad were arguing one day about his infidelity and Tate snuck into Ellery's car when Ellery was about to tell her mother about her father and his cheating. Ellery didn't know Tate was in the car until the last minute and Ellery forever blames herself. I think that even though Ellery wanted to die, it wasn't part of God's plan, if I say so myself. I believe that Colter saved her, and he's the perfect boyfriend that I would wish to have one day. He's seen her pain before, he's seen it in his brother when he committed suicide. That's why he was so set on saving her because he blames himself for not saving his brother no matter how much he pushed. Ellery and Colter of course fell in love, which I find their love very beautfiul BTW. Ellery didn't want help, but Colter knew she did, he did the thing that he knew he should have done for his own brother, and that is get help for Ellery in the end. Of course she felt betrayed but in the end, it worked out in her favor. She's getting better and she has people around that love and accept her. Amazing book!
parker_beyers's review against another edition
3.0
3.5
There were some fantastic portions of this book that had me invested in and concerned for Ellery, but I strongly believe that this story didn't need a romance. While Colter and Ellery were occasionally cute together, their relationship kind of felt toxic to me at certain points. I was actually far more interested in Ellery's connection and (sort of) friendship with Dean because it was so much more complex and morally ambiguous. Maybe if Colter just stuck with being friends with Ellery I would have liked their dynamic more? I don't know, but I was kind of disappointed with the route Chapman decided to take for the story.
There were some fantastic portions of this book that had me invested in and concerned for Ellery, but I strongly believe that this story didn't need a romance. While Colter and Ellery were occasionally cute together, their relationship kind of felt toxic to me at certain points. I was actually far more interested in Ellery's connection and (sort of) friendship with Dean because it was so much more complex and morally ambiguous. Maybe if Colter just stuck with being friends with Ellery I would have liked their dynamic more? I don't know, but I was kind of disappointed with the route Chapman decided to take for the story.
vivianne's review against another edition
3.0
Contains spoilers!
I’ve been postponing to read this book for about half a year now. It came in an subscription box and I’ve never found it interesting to read. I don’t like reading about suicide and it felt like I could already predict the ending with an overhanging romance. But since I’ve been really in a mood to shorten my tbr and this only has 287 pages it seemed like the right time.
The first pages were really bland for me I didn’t like that I didn’t understand why she wanted to commit suicide.Later in the book I did understood why the author made this delay because it created a certain kind of tension, since I wanted to know so bad why and it kept me reading. But the beginning was just not that great because I didn’t connect with Ellery and I found that she made stupid decisions like with the gun. Later in this book the plot did pick up a little but overall I found this book a little slow. It wasn’t boring but it just lacked a little more action or something, I didn’t expect this book to be focused that much on the romance.
The writing style was okay. It was ok enough for this type of book and easy enough to follow. But sometimes I felt like it wasn’t descriptive enough probably one of the reasons why this book is so short. I don’t know how half the people look, the houses, the town, the school? It did make this book a quick read but for such an emotional book sometimes things didn’t come across in the way the author meant it, I think. Going into this book I expected to cry way more and I did only once actually and that was the first grave yard scene.
Okay don’t get me wrong but I still don’t understand Ellery’s decision to commit suicide. I understand that it’s a tragic loss about her sister and I understand that she feels guilty but I don’t understand that that’s something to lose your own life over. I mean she still has friends, people to life for; her mom and Jackson. I mean she loves singing and psychology. Why not do something with these hobbies? Some suicides I do understand when your home situation sucks, when your depressed and when your bullied on school, I understand because you don’t have someone to talk to or a safe place to be (not saying suicide is ok, but these situations I can understand). But in this case she has a friend she can talk to, she has an okay enough bond with her mom, she has a safe home, her school situation is ok and she has an future. And at first I thought maybe Ellery is depressed, because of some sentences like “happy Ellery laughs”. But I didn’t really believe that, because her thoughts where sarcastic and funny and almost happy at some points and she didn’t seem depressed.
I also didn’t understand that when the gun didn’t work why she went back to the store, why not swallow a hand full of pills or jump from a building. If you want to die that bad? Why go to all the trouble of waiting for a special date and a special place?
These above points made me not understand Ellery and that made that I didn’t connect with her. And for this category book I really think that was necessary, I wanted to crawl into the main characters skin and become her in this situation, but that didn’t happen.
I really appreciate the friendships in this book. I liked Janie, and Jackson and Colter, but also Dean. I love the clique that forms at the ending of this book, and I really liked to read about when they hung out.
The ending was way too predictable. And can I just say that looking back on this story this book was a little bit corny. A girl in trouble and this guy just comes along and saves her, and they fall in love..
I’ve been postponing to read this book for about half a year now. It came in an subscription box and I’ve never found it interesting to read. I don’t like reading about suicide and it felt like I could already predict the ending with an overhanging romance. But since I’ve been really in a mood to shorten my tbr and this only has 287 pages it seemed like the right time.
The first pages were really bland for me I didn’t like that I didn’t understand why she wanted to commit suicide.
The writing style was okay. It was ok enough for this type of book and easy enough to follow. But sometimes I felt like it wasn’t descriptive enough
Okay don’t get me wrong but I still don’t understand Ellery’s decision to commit suicide. I understand that it’s a tragic loss about her sister and I understand that she feels guilty but I don’t understand that that’s something to lose your own life over. I mean she still has friends, people to life for; her mom and Jackson. I mean she loves singing and psychology. Why not do something with these hobbies? Some suicides I do understand when your home situation sucks, when your depressed and when your bullied on school, I understand because you don’t have someone to talk to or a safe place to be (not saying suicide is ok, but these situations I can understand). But in this case she has a friend she can talk to, she has an okay enough bond with her mom, she has a safe home, her school situation is ok and she has an future. And at first I thought maybe Ellery is depressed, because of some sentences like “happy Ellery laughs”. But I didn’t really believe that, because her thoughts where sarcastic and funny and almost happy at some points and she didn’t seem depressed.
I also didn’t understand that when the gun didn’t work why she went back to the store, why not swallow a hand full of pills or jump from a building. If you want to die that bad? Why go to all the trouble of waiting for a special date and a special place?
These above points made me not understand Ellery and that made that I didn’t connect with her. And for this category book I really think that was necessary, I wanted to crawl into the main characters skin and become her in this situation, but that didn’t happen.
I really appreciate the friendships in this book. I liked Janie, and Jackson and Colter, but also Dean. I love the clique that forms at the ending of this book, and I really liked to read about when they hung out.
The ending was way too predictable. And can I just say that looking back on this story this book was a little bit corny. A girl in trouble and this guy just comes along and saves her, and they fall in love..
phoenixloretta's review against another edition
5.0
Where to begin... I've witnessed this book grow from its earliest stages into what it has become now, and I have to say, I love, love, love what it has blossomed into! Erica is really good at blending the lighter and darker elements in the story of Ellery's life, and that balance worked to evoke a large array of emotions from me. She had me laughing out loud a few times, and sniffling and teary-eyed a decent amount of times. The characters Erica creates feel so real, I feel like I personally know all of them.
I'm so very proud of my sister and all that she has accomplished. I genuinely love this book, and I highly recommend it.
I'm so very proud of my sister and all that she has accomplished. I genuinely love this book, and I highly recommend it.
kinebmathiesen's review against another edition
3.0
ah, I want to give this book a 5-star-rating so badly, but I can’t!
I was so excited to read this when I finally got it, so I did. the first half book was so good, I couldn’t put it down! unfortunately, things got a little boring and cliche towards the end. I like that Ellery was still determined to kill herself through the whole book, and not magically saved by Colter. if there was another alternate ending at the end of the book where we could read what would have happened if she actually killed her, I would be thrilled.
I really really want to give this book 5 stars, but I can’t. It’s just missing something.
so just imagine that I’m giving this book 4.9 stars
I was so excited to read this when I finally got it, so I did. the first half book was so good, I couldn’t put it down! unfortunately, things got a little boring and cliche towards the end. I like that Ellery was still determined to kill herself through the whole book, and not magically saved by Colter. if there was another alternate ending at the end of the book where we could read what would have happened if she actually killed her, I would be thrilled.
I really really want to give this book 5 stars, but I can’t. It’s just missing something.
so just imagine that I’m giving this book 4.9 stars
juicelina's review against another edition
2.0
*More of a 2.5*
So I kind of liked this book for the most part, but it felt sort of off to me. I don't know if I really liked Ellery, because she tried so hard to be a special snowflake and "not like other girls." Also this book incorporates that stupid trope where a girl meets a boy and she's not depressed anymore. It was gradual at least and tried hard not to be that trope, but they were "so in love" after a month of knowing each other and Ellery began to question why she wanted to commit suicide. I liked Colter, but I really don't understand why and how they fell in love. It felt sort of rushed like first he was trying to save her and she thought he was annoying for it and now bam! they're in love.
I don't know this book was weird. I liked it at first, but as I read more it gave me a bad taste. I really don't know how to explain it. It was an okay book, but there's something wrong with it that I just can't put my finger on. Meh meh meh. I wanted to like it so much more than I did, but I guess it wasn't meant to be.
So I kind of liked this book for the most part, but it felt sort of off to me. I don't know if I really liked Ellery, because she tried so hard to be a special snowflake and "not like other girls." Also this book incorporates that stupid trope where a girl meets a boy and she's not depressed anymore. It was gradual at least and tried hard not to be that trope, but they were "so in love" after a month of knowing each other and Ellery began to question why she wanted to commit suicide. I liked Colter, but I really don't understand why and how they fell in love. It felt sort of rushed like first he was trying to save her and she thought he was annoying for it and now bam! they're in love.
Spoiler
Also I totallyyyy saw it coming that Colter had a sibling who also committed suicide and that's why he was hanging around Ellery trying to help her. I feel like that's such a cliche.I don't know this book was weird. I liked it at first, but as I read more it gave me a bad taste. I really don't know how to explain it. It was an okay book, but there's something wrong with it that I just can't put my finger on. Meh meh meh. I wanted to like it so much more than I did, but I guess it wasn't meant to be.